Friday, December 16

Sew Easy

In November I started a fairly time-consuming photography job. Between that and several other photography jobs, it seems that most of my spare time since then has been spent either taking photographs or editing them.  In the meantime I also hosted Thanksgiving, I've been taking the kids to all of their various activities and commitments - not to mention coaching their Odyssey of the Mind team AND chaperoning a field trip.  And let's not forget Christmas.  I'm sure I don't have to tell you how much work Christmas is. So, yeah, things have been a little nuts around here.

In an attempt to simplify my life I decided to purchase some cloth gift bags from Tiny Olive. I loved the idea of being able to reuse them year after year. But, just from looking at the description on the web site, I realized that these bags would not accommodate all of our gifts because they're fairly small.  And if you've been around young children opening gifts, you probably realize that they rarely wish for small things.  While I was looking around online for some bigger bags, inspiration hit. Why not make my own bags?!  My mom recently gave me a sewing machine, with the offer to teach me how to sew.  If you were paying attention to that last sentence, you probably caught the part about my not knowing how to sew. Plus I have absolutely no free time, remember?

Undeterred by theses small details, the very next day Mom and I set off for the fabric store.  We bought various necessary sewing supplies and about 22 yards of various different fabrics.  Instead of making a draw string, I decided I would tie a ribbon around the bags.  I figured that would make them easier to sew and I thought it would be pretty, to boot.  I also discovered that making my own bags was not great cost savings.  Hmph.

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The pretty bags from Tiny Olive that provided inspiration.  By the time they arrived, I already had already completed three bags of my own.
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Mom taught me how to load the bobbin and thread the machine.

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She taught me how to make a french seam.

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She showed me how to hem the top edge.
I now have a dozen large bags and I actually want to go back and buy some more fabric.  I may add drawstrings at a later point.  This was a great project for learning some sewing basics and I *do* think sewing is something I could totally get into it. Plus I'm excited to add these gift bags to our holiday traditions.

I'll have to add some photos of the final products.  I have a suspicion I'll be taking pictures on Christmas day...

Friday, November 11

Pesky Stored Form Values?

I had accidentally typed my user name AND password for eBay so anyone someone tried to login to eBay from my computer, my info was all right there...nekkid.  And as you can imagine, it was making me crazy.  I tried deleting cookies. No good.  I complained to my husband who said that I needed to remove the "form value".  Well, I still didn't know how the heck I was supposed to do that but that was more than enough information to find a solution courtesy of my good, close friend, Google.

TA DA!

http://www.refreshinglyblue.com/2007/06/01/how-to-delete-saved-form-data-in-firefox/

It worked like a charm!  Thank you Refreshingly Blue!

Sunday, November 6

Dare Devil #2

Two of my girls are complete dare devils. She's one of the two.

On Friday Kardynn informed me that she wanted a cell phone...at the tender age of 3.75.

Today we got rid of the slide, the "spinny chairs" and their little Flintstones-esque, foot-powered car.  Plus we got them all outfitted in ski equipment...as in their very own skis.

They're growing up.

Today's Chat with Annika


Saturday, November 5

Scribble Scrabble

Conversation with Kardynn:

"Kiersten wants to read Grampy a Matt book...because she knows how to read.  I don't know how to read...[enthusiastically] but I know how to listen...and I know how to scribble scrabble.  Autumn doesn't know how to color.  She just knows how to sleep."

*scribble scrabble = scribble

Tuesday, October 11

Smokey Eyes, ala Heather

The other day I flipped on the TV and happened to catch a segment on Rachel Ray's show with Tyra Banks.  I'm not sure why I had turned the TV because I only had a few minutes but it was long enough to watch Tyra Banks give a quick tutorial on smokey eyes.  The following day, I woke up, and feeling all inspired by having watching Tyra's tutorial, I actually put on some make-up. 

But within five minutes I realized I had a rare opportunity to go for a quick mid-morning jog because my mom happened to be there and could watch my youngest.  I switched to running clothes and went for a little 4 mile jaunt, pretty eye make-up and all.  When I got home I took a quick shower because it was now time to drive my mom to the airport.  As I was headed out the door, I glanced in the mirror and realized that I now had magnificent smokey eyes.  Though I do have to admit my method took a little more time and effort than Tyra's.

Wednesday, September 28

Daytime Sky


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Annika informed me that this was an x-ray of birds in the sky. Those dots are bugs they've eaten.

Triathlon

I haven't really mentioned this too much on here...probably because there hasn't been much mentioning going on, period *lowers head shamefully* - but this summer I have been on an exercise mission.  After school got out for the summer, my friend Norma and I got up early every morning and we for an hour's bike ride.  I was already participating in a beginner triathlon swim class at the gym so I continued to do that twice a week. Once in a blue moon I would also throw in a small jog for good measure. Eventually Norma and I started adding a longer bike ride on the weekends.

This was primarily prompted by my desire to get back in shape. Plus we had been talking about an Engen vs Prouty triathlon race.  You may recall that last year I was part of a relay team at last year's Giant Acorn Triathlon. I did the swim leg and pretty much sucked because I didn't really know how to swim. But my teammates were good sports about it and I actually had a good time despite the chagrin of not being a very speedy swimmer.  My awesome husband and father-in-law came down to support me so that's how the talk started.  *ahem* I may have possibly challenged their family in a head-to-head competition.

Initially we thought that my brother Danny could swim against Justin. And then Bruce and I could go head-to-head on the bike. And then Dwight and my dad would meet on the running course.  But then things got switched around. In the fall I took swim lessons.  After the triathlon, I realized that I wanted to learn how to swim correctly - with my head in the water. It was so cool when it finally clicked for me and I started swimming laps and kinda looked like a swimmer. And then my brother got a road bike for Christmas. In the Spring Justin confirmed that he wouldn't be able to make it.  So, it eventually morphed into this:

Swim: Heather vs Dwight
Bike: Danny vs Bruce
Run: Bob vs Mark

By the time I got our two teams signed up, I had decided to do the entire Sprint on my own.  (The relay is for the international distance and the sprint is the following day.) In August I started training in earnest. Since then, six days a week, I've been biking, I've been running, I've been swimming, and sometimes two of the above (known as bricks, in the triathlon world). Two weeks ago I bought a used road bike. And now it's here - the big weekend. I've already picked up our wet suit rentals. On Friday we'll drive down to the house where we're staying for the race. Very exciting!

For a while Dwight has been teasing us that a Team Prouty win would also be a Team Engen win since he's been paying for my swim lessons and Danny's bike was given to him by Engens as well.  So I designed some t-shirts, in that spirit.

Tri shirts

By the way, I called our team TRI for 60 because my dad turned 60 this year and it's a special treat for my brother and I to get to spend some time with him.

Thursday, September 22

Photography

Yesterday a strange thing happened to me. Actually, I'm jumping ahead of myself. Let me back up a bit and explain what's been going on.

We're a few weeks into school and lately I can't help but think and wonder about the next chapter in my life. My kids are growing up. Yes, yes, yes, I know my youngest is only three but I have no doubt that before I know it, she'll be headed off to school and I'll be left wondering where the time went.  Not to mention, I think I'm a little restless to figure out a plan for what comes next. Remember, I'm a planner.

I had started to toy with the idea of graphic design. I have no doubt that's something I would enjoy. So I considered going back to school and then trying to get a gig as a freelance graphic designer. But I realized that trying to jump straight into freelance work was probably ambitious.  I had the good sense to talk to a graphic designer friend and I quickly realized graphic design would not be a good fit for a busy, mother-of-four.  We all sat around and brain stormed and once again, my friends encouraged me to pursue photography.

So, I've been thinking more about it and trying to figure out why I hesitate to throw myself into this and really pursue photography.  In the meantime, a friend had contacted me about taking some photos for her club and while I was discussing the details with my husband I made a comment about a future point when people might start contacting me to take photos for them.  Dwight said, "Heather, that's happening now. People you don't know want you to take photos for them. You need to start charging people."

And I realized with a shock that he's right. And then yesterday I had a moment. I was driving home from exercising and once again thinking about my future and mulling over photography as a career option. I picked up my kids and then happened to notice that my phone was blinking with a message.  Someone had called while I was out exercising. I listened to the message and it was someone calling to ask me about taking photographs. Suddenly I felt like maybe the universe has been trying to tell me something and I keep ignoring it.

I love taking photographs.  Why am I fighting this?

I'm sure it won't be easy. I'm sure it won't provide the most steady income but hey, something is better than nothing, right?!  And maybe it won't work out. But I think I should give it a try. Fortunately I still have lots of time to ease into this.

And did I mention that I love taking pictures?

Today I took step one and started putting together a web site that I can refer people to.  Check it out and tell me what you think. http://heatherengen.wordpress.com/ 

Friday, September 2

Lace up your Running Shoes

This summer my kids participated in a running program. My one daughter really takes to running. This past Sunday they had a mock track meet and she walked away with two first place finishes and a second place finish. My other daughter is also fairly speedy, though less competitive. When she would pass me during her races, she would slow down to wave at me and smile. She still managed to get a third place ribbon despite her casual approach to the whole thing. But my proudest moment was actually with my son.

He is *not* a natural-born runner. It's not his passion, it doesn't come easily for him and to be honest, he doesn't even really like it. When the program started, he would run short distances and then stop because his knees were hurting. And he was never enthusiastic when it was time to leave for track practice. But I loved that he always had a good attitude while he was there. He'd run around the track with a smile on his face and my heart would be bursting with pride for this guy who is such a good sport.

At Sunday's track meet, the kids were allowed to sign up for a max of three events and the younger kids were encouraged to sign up for the shorter distances. My little runner signed up for the 100, 200 and 400. The other two were content with the 100 and 200. They all ran their races and they all did great but afterward, my son seemed to have some regrets that he had not tried the 400. So I encouraged him to go do it and I would wait. So he did. He ran around that track by himself, just to prove to himself that he could. And that my friends, was my proudest moment of the entire day.

Sunday, July 31

ISO: An organizational mentor

I want to purge and simplify my life but I'm having a hard time getting started.  Well, that's not completely fair.  To be honest I've gotten much better about purging the last few years.  But now I want to really go for it...but I can't quite seem to actually do it.  I wake up with great intentions, sometimes, for example, I even make it down to the playroom, the site of my greatest intentions.  The other day I even grabbed a trash bag and threw a few things in it.  And then I stalled.  Every time I try to start, I stall.  HELP ME!  I really, really want to simplify my life.  I'm so tired of my house always being a cluttered disaster.  How do I do this?  Has anyone else been here?  How do I begin?

Sunday, July 24

Whose dream is this anyway?

Hey guys...I've got a few minutes so I thought I would post a little something on the bloggy blog.  It's been a busy summer.  We've been doing a lot of swimming, some traveling, a lot of exercising (for me) and some soul searching mixed in (also for me).  I think I'm at a weird stage in my life.  I feel very "in between" these days.  The kids are not little but they're not big either.  Next year all the kids will be off to school...but only part time.  I'm wondering when I should go back to work and what I should be doing when that happens.  (Right now I'm leaning towards pursuing graphic design, in case anyone's wondering and wants to share their opinion.)  I could ramble on for a bit about all the various ways that I feel "between" things, but I'm short on time so I won't.  Mainly because I want to get to the point which is that I think I'm in the midst of a mini little mid-life crisis...of sorts...okay...maybe not a crisis but a minor mid-life scuffle.  I live such a blessed life - I *know* that - but it's still not exactly what I thought it would be or even what I want it to be.  So I'm trying to figure all of that out. 

Oh...too funny...I just IMed with my friend and told her she was living the dream.  She responded, "Whose dream?"  That perfectly sums up what I'm feeling at this instant.  And with that, I'm off to go retrieve my kids.  Back to the grind.

Tuesday, July 19

Da-niece

My niece arrived earlier this month and last weekend I had a chance to take a few photos. I didn't actually take as many photos as I would have liked, because several of us were clamoring to hold her.


Wednesday, May 25

Little Angels Rock


Little Angels Rock, originally uploaded by hezro.

I'm a smidge critical of my photography. I don't think I'm supposed to admit this but if I'm being perfectly honestly, I never really like ANY of my pictures. *sigh* For example, today I took a few shots of Little K which I think are just okay. I am suspicious that I might like them better if I could see them minus Heather-the-Photographer filter...but I don't know.  Perhaps I would dislike them even more!  Ha!  

I think the most frustrating thing is that I'm not even sure what I'm unhappy about. I just look at my pictures and think they're not good enough.  The white balance is off, the focus isn't sharp, the color isn't fully saturated, the background is distracting...and so on and so forth.


Little Angels Rock, originally uploaded by hezro.

I've even started thinking my camera is messed up...maybe it *is* messed up.  I should look carefully at my camera settings and just make sure I didn't accidentally change something.  But I have a feeling it's just this weird funk I've been in.


I'm also suspicious that I might be a bit of a perfectionist.  But it needs to stop.  I just want to go back to taking pictures and enjoying it.  I'm getting too caught up worrying about silly stuff that doesn't matter.  The important thing is that I'm recording my adorable little children being their wonderful little selves...right?!

Update twenty minutes later:

So here I was, wallowing in this pit of self-loathing.  And then I saw this video my cousin posted on Facebook and it made me laugh and realize that I am taking myself WAY TOO SERIOUSLY.  She could not have posted this at a more perfect time.  Thank you Hilary for giving me some perspective. Ha! 

Monday, May 23

Go Bezerk

This weekend my sister-in-law and I were talking about this being little K's favorite book. My sister-in-law said, "Yeah, and then one time she told me 'Daddy goes bezerk'." Of course I realized that what little K really meant was that Daddy goes to work!

Tooth Fairy

Friday, May 20

Puddles

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I love my daughter's fashion sense. It takes a special person to pull off fire engine rain boots with a glittery, frilly, girlie skirt. Fortunately she *is* a very special person.

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She started off on the scooter with these very chic flats, before she wisely switched to the more sensible fire engine rain boots.

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At some point she switched from the fire engine rain boots to the equally fashionable striped, green, frog rain boots.

This girl could definitely work the runway...or at least she'd have no trouble with the speedy behind-the-scenes wardrobe changes!

Tasmania

O Boy's class is studying Australia right now. This works out well because O Boy is currently obsessed with his World Atlas and he already happened to be reading up on Australia on his own.

Why has he been reading up on Australia, you ask?  Well, his favorite country is actually Indonesia. Though, to say that Indonesia is his favorite country doesn't accurately depict his current enthusiasm for Indonesia. He's reading everything he can about Indonesia. He googled "how to speak Indonesian" in hopes that he really would learn. He's been checking out books out from the library. He spends hours studying Indonesia on Google Earth.  He wants to know everything about Indonesia and he actually does know quite a bit. He can tell you about Indonesian economy, vegetation, agriculture, et cetera. At some point someone mentioned to him that Indonesia is dangerous so, since he plans to live in Indonesia when he's an adult, he has also carefully researched several escape routes. And seeing as how Australia is fairly close to Indonesia, naturally he's checked into Australia as a potential destination, should there be any natural disasters while he's living in Indonesia.

The other day he came home from school upset because ALLEGEDLY his teacher had told them that Tasmania is a territory, not a state. We looked it up online and sure enough, Tasmania is one of Australia's six states (and there are two territories: Northern Territory and Australian Capital Territory).



Part of me suspected that he might have misunderstood what the teacher said since they *are* studying Australia in class, after all. But I said, "Well, O Boy, if you get marked wrong for putting that on the test, Mommy will fight for you. But otherwise, don't worry about it." And that was that. Or so I thought until this morning when I looked over the homework O Boy is returning to school today.

(And let me just say right up front, yes, yes, I see that there are quite a few mistakes. This week I've been a bit out of commission so the kids were left to fend for themselves on a lot of fronts. Oops!)


In australia, I would see kangaroos. I can also see koalas, too. I could see wambats or seals. I could go to antartican territory. I can study an australian map. I would learn tasmania is a state. I would learn northern territory is a territory.

Saturday, May 7

May Flowers

Today I downloaded...*ahem*...a couple week's worth of photos off my camera, plus I perused about a month's worth of photos that I haven't really looked at.  I've been so stinking busy.  It's sad.  So going through these photos was just like the old days when you'd drop a roll of film off to get processed and then you'd have so much fun flipping through them when you'd get them back.  Fortunately for me, I rarely post process photos so I didn't have the anxiety of "being behind" that flipping through a month's worth of ignored photos might have caused some people.  I just enjoyed looking through them and seeing what we had been up to.  I uploaded a few to my Facebook photography page.

It was nice to look back through these photos because I think it helped rekindle a bit of my love affair with photography.  Lately I just haven't been feeling it.  I've not taken a lot of photos.  Of course, my version of not taking a lot of photos means I don't have two dozen photos every single day.  *hehe*  And there are even several days with no photo at all.  *GASP*  But looking back through these photos made me feel like pulling the camera out again.

While I perusing some more photos this evening, it occurred to me to go check out the Focus 52 prompt for this week and see if I had any that fit the bill.  And well...what do you know...the prompt was May flowers.  And probably my two favorite series of shots from this week actually had a flower connection.

Last weekend we did a bunch of landscaping so all this week we've been watering like crazy.  My kids like to help water. Well let's be real, they want access to the hose and if that means aiming it at some crazy plants their parents planted around the house, so be it.  So here's my daughter watering some of our new flowering shrubs.

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(And then after I said that I don't post process, I went right to Photoshop and adjusted the curves on this.  *hehe*)

The second photo is actually of a cake...but there is a flower connection, I promise.  A few weeks ago my mom turned 60.  That's a pretty big deal, right?  I wanted to do something special for her so I started planning to present her with a birthday cake at a little soiree that I would be hosting.  Plus my brother and his wife and my husband and I DID take her out to dinner on her birthday but that actually turned into a big fiasco.  I got super light-headed and had to leave dinner early.  But anyway, back to her birthday.  I ordered a special cake for her and yesterday evening, at my little soiree, I presented her with the birthday/mother's day cake.  And then today I took the bottom layer to my mother-in-law's house and we got to enjoy the mother's day cake with her as well.

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See, I told you there was a flower tie-in!

So there you go...my two flower photos for this week.

Thursday, May 5

Crayola Markers

On New Years Eve, we went to the Crayola Factory at Two Rivers Landing with Dwight's aunt and uncle. We had a ton of fun and I definitely would recommend this museum, if you happen to be in the area.  BUT...there's one thing that I walked away with that I MUST share. They told us how to save markers that have been left without the lid. You put them in water for like 20-30 seconds, recap them and then let them sit overnight tip-down.  It works like a charm.

Monday, May 2

Mavericks

I'm sitting here on the couch watching my beloved Dallas Mavericks take on the Lakers. Dwight is sitting here watching with me. It's hard to describe how much I love these guys, to someone who is not a sports fan. But I'm pretty sure any sports fan gets it.

So I'm wishing my guys lots of luck and hoping for the best!

Thursday, April 7

Blossom Buds


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Oh...I guess I never posted any other blossom photos. Well, I have a few in my Flickr stream and even more on my Facebook page but here's another one of my favorites.  This was taken before the buds were really opening up.

Thursday, March 31

Lip Gloss

My girls love chapstick, lip gloss, lip stick - anything to do with lips. So I couldn't help but chuckle when I saw this drawing lying around. (Courtesy of Kiersten)

Wednesday, March 30

Busy

Yesterday I decided that I am FINALLY going to do another layout. As you may recall, I signed up to do Focus52, with the intent of doing one layout a week.  We're already thirteen weeks into the year so I should have about thirteen layouts, right?  Guess how many layouts I've done? Three. *shh*  Yes, that's right. I said three. I've finished three layouts.

So last night I sat down feeling all inspired to do a layout, with grand ideas about trying to get caught back up even.  I popped over to Jan's page and saw that the prompt for this week is silly.  However, I wasn't feeling the word silly.  So I started writing about something else. And to be frank, it wouldn't have mattered WHAT the prompt was, the thing on my mind was that I was ten weeks behind schedule...and WHY I was ten weeks behind schedule. I started writing about my crazy life and about how I'm getting my kids from one place to another all day long and my schedule changes from day-to-day which makes it even more confusing and complicated.

When I had finished my journaling and was starting to think about embellishing my page, it suddenly struck me that this all seemed a little familiar...very familiar, in fact.  So I looked back at those three completed layouts - and this is where silly DOES end up coming into play.  ahem I already did a layout about my crazy schedule. I've now completed four layouts this year, and half of them are about my crazy schedule.

But I think that's fitting.  That's where my life is at right now.

(But next I hope to do a layout that isn't about my schedule.)

Sunday, March 6

Vacation Vacation Vacation

I'm on vacation. I mean, I'm *really* on vacation because it's just me and my husband. I don't have to take care of anyone else for an entire nine days. Imagine that?!  Nine days of vacation from being a mommy.  It wouldn't really matter where I was, I'd be enjoying that.  But we actually ARE somewhere amazing.  We're here in Keystone, Colorado enjoying the best of what winter has to offer. 

I've been reluctant to call home and ask for the kids because I didn't want to upset the apple cart, so to speak. If they're happy, best to leave them be.  But yesterday I got a phone call from home and I asked to talk to them.  The instant I heard my son's voice, I realized just how much I miss those little tykes. I don't miss all the work that comes with them but I sure do miss the wonderful little people that they are and the overflowing love that they bring into my life.

Having said that, I had to chuckle yesterday when I saw what my cousin posted to her Facebook page.  (This is the cousin who's watching the kids while we're here on vacation.)

That really made me chuckle.  I immediately thought, "Welcome to my world!" 

Although, I have to tell you, it surprised me a little because I kept thinking, she's young, surely she'll have the energy and stamina to last a week with these kids.  But, nope, even my 18 year-old cousin is worn out by the little tykes!  And I'm choosing to be flattered by that (as well as trying to not feel guilty for possibly throwing her in over her head).

I think I've remarked before on the frequency that people praise me for the job I'm doing.  I'm always mystified by that because what I frequently focus on are the many ways I believe that I'm failing my children.  But I think maybe people realize that just surviving the day is a feat worthy of celebration.  *hehe* Maybe now I can start realizing that too.

Monday, February 21

When it rains...


The kids and I went to the fire station to take Uncle Danny some lime juice for a salad he was making.

Afterwards we stopped by the shopping center...


...specifically Taco Bell.


I'm a sucker for wet pavement. Can you tell?

Wednesday, February 16

Questions

I was washing dishes and Little K was eating breakfast. She asked me to come to her because she wanted to see me while she talked to me.  I walked over and she said, "What's my question?"  I said, "I don't know. It's your question."  She became quite agitated.  I said, "It's okay, you can ask me when you remember."  She cried, "But I can't remember still."  Suddenly her face lit up and she said, "I remembered my question!  It's something I don't know!"  And that was it. End of conversation.

Tuesday, February 15

My Scrabble Strategy

I grew up in a family of Scrabble players...well...my extended family. When I was a teenager, I expressed some interest in trying to play and Dad said, "You need to memorize the two and three letter words first." You think I'm kidding? Grandma handed me a photocopy with lists of words for me to learn.  Needless to say, I did not start playing Scrabble when I was a teenager.

About a year ago I started playing Scrabulous on Facebook. At first I would call Dad up on the phone and say, "I have XYZ letters and I really think they should make a word". ("XYZ letters" hahahaha That makes me laugh. But I digress.) Later I started double checking myself on wineverygame.com. After I would finish my play, I would check my letters to see if I could have gotten a bingo. Usually I can tell when my letters ought to be able to make something, and the frustrating thing is that more times than not, sure enough, they WOULD have spelled a bingo. I don't get so annoyed when it's a word I don't know but I do beat myself up when it's a word I do know - or worse - an easy word.  So I don't check very often anymore.  Every once in a while, when I KNOW there has to be a word and I can't see it, I might go check afterwards.  But I'm really too lazy to be bothered - plus it's kinda depressing.

Facebook Scrabble works well for me because it won't accept words that aren't legit - which does happen to me on occasion. If fact, just the other day I was shocked by a word that ought to exist but apparently doesn't!! :) And I have to admit that I'm forever "trying" words in the dictionary. I've gotten pretty good at assembling words into likely patterns and I frequently stumble onto words I didn't know - I'm sure the purists would be aghast. Today I saw that my letters spelled "STRAWED" so what the heck, I gave it a try and sure enough - I got the bingo. (Sorry Hil.)

When I'm looking for a bingo, I almost always start with the end of the word. I look for common endings and then switch around the other letters in front of that.  The nice thing is then you really only need to find a four or five letter word to go in front of ING or ED or IER or whatever it might be. Frequently after having spent a while working with ER at the end of a word, I remember that RE can also be the start of a word. *hehe*

What's amazing to me is how much easier it has gotten to spot bingoes. Now my big frustration is that I'll find the bingo in my rack but then there's no place to put it on the board. Sometimes I'll have really great letters and can find several bingoes, but no still no place to put any them. That kills me.

So anyway, I'm going to pass along the tricks that I learned from my dad. I think there are different strategies but Dad is always going for the bingo. He figures that if you get a few bingoes, you're likely to win the game. So primarily I try to play that way too. I'm not too worried about putting high value letters in primo places (though it's nice, don't get me wrong). If I get an X or a Z or a Q or a J - I always try to get rid of it right away because it's hard to get bingoes with those letters and that's my ultimate plan. I think Dad told me his favorite letters are SEITR and the blank, of course. So I started trying to hang on to those, whenever possible. Later on I read online that the best letters for a bingo are considered to RETAIN + blank because you can get a TON of words out of that. And it's so handy to remember, right?! Of course I'll always hang on to an S too because they're great for placing bingoes.

I know there are other schools of thought out there but there you go...that's mine. Dad told me that Grandma hangs on to UI until the Q gets played. And maybe you should listen to Grandma because right now she's kicking my butt 329 to 164.
(I figured I'd better blur out the tiles on my rack so she doesn't use that info against me.)

Overheard at Breakfast

Annika, "Kardynn, I know you might not remember this but how come you didn't turn upside down in Mommy's tummy?"
Kardynn, "Because it hurt my arm."

Monday, February 14

Valentines

Earlier today my sweet friend called me up and asked if I had plans.  She said that she was going to doll me up for Valentines Day.  She was going to sexy-ify me for the evening.  Cool.  So she did - she came over and prettied me up.  My favorite quotable was when she said something to the effect of "Heather, just try to be girlie."  *haha*  It's true. I'm so not a girlie-girl.  I have three daughters and I'm still a huge tomboy.  Yikes!  Anyway, she made my hair all pretty and put make up on me and then rushed out the door for a date with her own hubby.



And then I checked my phone and there was a text from the hubby, "I'm going to Hunters game. I tried to call you like 5 times :-( anyway, I'll c you tonight."

Story of my life.

Friday, February 11

Now We Are Thirty-Six

My dad loves writing poetry.  And he's good at it too!  I have a blog where I attempt to accumulate his poetry, although this is a very small fraction of the stuff he's written.  One of the special things he does is writes us a poem every year for our birthday.  I'm not sure when that started but perhaps it was this book that spurred that tradition.  I got this book when I was a little girl.  It's one of my very treasured possessions. 


The title poem is in the back.


As you can see the final verse has been scratched out. For a few years it was tradition that my dad would come up with a new little verse to mark the passing birthdays.  The back cover has another verse penned out from when I turned nine.

That's the back story for this year's very special birthday poem.  (Because today just happens to be my birthday.)


Heather, On Motherhood (subtitled, Many the Poo)

When I was 31, I wondered what I'd done.
When I was 32, I barely knew what to do.
When I was 33, I had no time for me.
When I was 34, I had one baby more.
When I was 35, I just tried to survive.
But now I am 36, I'm as clever as clever.
I think I'll be 36 now for ever and ever.

And because I'm super douper lucky, I got a second poem:

Ramshackle Heart

You inhabit every corner of
This ramshackle heart of mine,
Walls without clocks and doors without locks
And love wrapping round like a vine.

For the doors are simply memories
And the windows but a view
Of moments of grace that are holding in place
This heart you can see right through.

And often a door falls open,
And another door, and then...
There's my little girl at five years old;
There's my little girl at ten.

There's my little baby all grown up
With babies of her own
And wondering to herself, no doubt,
At how much they have grown.

And though you may not hear from me,
My heart has heard from you...
This ramshackle heart would have fallen apart
If those messages didn't come through.

A door, a door, another door,
There is no foretelling when,
And there you are, and there you are,
Yes, and there you are again.

Tuesday, February 8

Coming Up for Air

This summer I had a scary experience in the ocean.  I had been on the shore supervising the kids while the guys played around on boogie boards in the water.  There was a hurricane headed our way and that meant big waves for the guys to play in. When they finally came back, I asked Dwight to watch the kids while I went for a quick swim.  My father-in-law went out with me.

Before I knew it, I was in over my head - quite literally.  The water was very turbulent and I felt like I was getting pulled all different directions.  I got a little separated from my father-in-law. He was only about ten feet away but I could not get back to him. He could touch but I couldn't, so the undertow was having its way with me. Eventually I drifted to a spot where I was able to touch between waves. But I was quite tired by this point.  I was trying to dive under the waves but they were coming in so fast and so violently that I barely had time to recoup between them.  One of the waves pulled my swim skirt down to my knees.  Several times I swallowed water.

I got scared.

There was a deeper channel between me and the shore and I questioned whether or not I could make it across. I was nervous to leave the relative safety of the little sand bar where I could touch between waves.  I thought the lifeguard was watching me and I considered flailing my arms to get his attention...but I didn't. Maybe I was embarrassed.  Maybe I was proud.  I think mainly I just didn't really believe I was in trouble. I thought I would be okay and that I could make it back.  But I was scared. I looked for my husband on the shore.  I tried shouting his name but of course he couldn't hear me.  I quietly said, "help."

The happy ending to that story is that around that same time I decided to just swim to the freakin' shore. And I was fine. I don't know why I thought that would be a problem. When I reached the beach, I collapsed on the sand. The lifeguard came by to see if I was okay because he had in fact been watching me.

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Tonight I sat quietly in my room with a million frustrated thoughts running through my head.  I had a miserable day. I drove to the gym and realized I never dropped my daughter off at preschool. I considered just taking her to the gym with me but instead I turned around and dropped her off at school. As I was walking out of there, I realized that I still had her coat in my hand, which meant yet another U-Turn. When I went back to pick her up, I opened my car door and the wind blew it out of my hand and slammed it into the car next to mine...and left a surprisingly large ding in that car.  I tracked down the owner.  Later my daughter crawled under my desk and crashed my computer. It took me about an hour and a half to get it back online. My kids made one huge mess and one large mess.  I messed up the soup I made for supper. Blah, blah, blah.  You get the idea.

So like I said, I was feeling frustrated and sitting in my room wallowing in it a little.  And I whispered the words, "Help".  That suddenly took me back to that other day when I was in the ocean and fighting to keep my head above water.  I had an epiphany. What is it about me that I can't let people know when I need help? Why do I let myself get in over my head?

It feels very cliche to mention yet again how hard it is to be a mother but goshdarnit, this parenting business is tough. And I wasn't prepared for what a poor job I would do of it, either.  Or maybe it's more accurate to say that I'm not living up the expectations I had created for myself.

My husband always accuses me of being whiny when I force him to read these posts.  I'm sure he'll say that again when I make him read this one.  So I'll own it. You're right. I'm being whiny. I'm not ready to stop wallowing in it just yet. But maybe tomorrow the waters will be calm. And you know what, most days I do realize that I'm darn lucky to be swimming in this ocean. But yeah, today the water was rough and that's okay. Sometimes the water gets rough.

Wednesday, February 2

Things Are Not Always What They Seem...

A few months ago my five year-old started getting into food. We've tried various tactics to get her to stop, with moderate success. She's mostly stopped doing it but every now and again we see that she's slipped into old habits. Just last night I discovered a tupperware of pretzel treats at the foot of her bed, under the sheets. We had a talk with her and explained that we don't want her getting into food because she could get into something dangerous - something that she shouldn't be eating. Unbeknownst to us, she'd already learned a lesson about things that look like food but aren't food.

This morning I found an empty wrapper in her room and the subsequent investigation lead me to a trashcan, where I found this:


Not-so-yummy soap, originally uploaded by hezro.

Apparently she thought it was a chocolate bar.

Tuesday, February 1

Cleaning Solution





A few years ago I bought some cleaning solution from a door-to-door salesman. The guy peddled his wares and showed how this wonderful solution could turn your tennis shoes white again, could get the green mildew off your patio, could clean your carpets.  And it was non-toxic - totally safe to use around kids. You could spray it on your hands and no worries. So I bought some. And then I'm embarassed to admit that it sat for years under my kitchen sink...taking up precious real estate.  But recently I hauled it out and decided to use  up the darn stuff.  And here's the thing.  It sits on my counter taunting me.  Because I kid you not, every time I see it, I can't help but recall The Emperor's New Clothes.  I have to wonder, did all those things come clean because of this wonder solution or did they come clean because he used a little elbow grease?  I'm thinking it was the latter.  And in the meantime I intend to get my money's worth from my cleaning solution...which I guess means I have a lot of elbow grease in my future.

Saturday, January 29

Coconut Banana Bread with Lime Glaze

Apparently I like taking pictures of food. Ha!

That means my family is benefiting from the food I've been photographing and you guys are benefiting from the recipes I've been posting.  Or you SHOULD be - I can't help you if you don't try making all these delicious foods.  :)

This recipe actually comes at you from the Jen that I mentioned in my Play Dough post. I just found it online as well so this is text that I've copied from myrecipes.com.

Coconut Banana Bread with Lime Glaze

The tangy lime glaze cuts the sweetness of the bread. Substitute apple juice for the rum if you prefer.

Yield: 1 loaf, 16 servings (serving size: 1 slice)
Ingredients

* 2 cups all-purpose flour
* 3/4 teaspoon baking soda
* 1/2 teaspoon salt
* 1 cup granulated sugar
* 1/4 cup butter, softened
* 2 large eggs
* 1 1/2 cups mashed ripe banana (about 3 bananas)
* 1/4 cup plain low-fat yogurt
* 3 tablespoons dark rum
* 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
* 1/2 cup flaked sweetened coconut
* Cooking spray
* 1 tablespoon flaked sweetened coconut
* 1/2 cup powdered sugar
* 1 1/2 tablespoons fresh lime or lemon juice

Preparation

Preheat oven to 350°.

Lightly spoon the flour into dry measuring cups, and level with a knife. Combine the flour, baking soda, and salt, stirring with a whisk to combine.

Place granulated sugar and butter in a large bowl; beat with a mixer at medium speed until well blended (about 1 minute). Add the eggs, 1 at a time, beating well after each addition. Add banana, yogurt, rum, and vanilla; beat until blended. Add flour mixture; beat at low speed just until moist. Stir in 1/2 cup coconut. Spoon batter into a 9 x 5-inch loaf pan coated with cooking spray; sprinkle with 1 tablespoon coconut. Bake at 350° for 1 hour or until a wooden pick inserted in center comes out clean. Cool 10 minutes in pan on a wire rack; remove from pan. Combine powdered sugar and juice, stirring with a whisk; drizzle over warm bread. Cool bread completely on wire rack.
Nutritional Information

Calories:   193 (21% from fat)
Fat:   4.6g (sat 2.8g,mono 1.1g,poly 0.3g)
Protein:   2.9g
Carbohydrate:   35g
Fiber:   1.1g
Cholesterol:   35mg
Iron:   1mg
Sodium:   179mg
Calcium:   15mg

Cooking Light, SEPTEMBER 2003

Play Dough


Feb 10, originally uploaded by hezro.
This is the recipe I got from my daughter's preschool.

2 cups flour
1 cup salt
2 cups water
4 tsp Cream of Tartar
3 or 4 tbsp oil
Food coloring, if desired

Mix all ingredients in pot over stove until proper consistency. Stir throughout cooking process. Store in plastic Ziploc bag.

I actually do something a little different, thanks to a tip from my friend Jen. Instead of food coloring, I add a packet of Kool Aid mix. It adds wonderful color and smells great too.

Thursday, January 27

Cream of Broccoli Soup


Cream of Broccoli Soup, originally uploaded by hezro.
We went to Dwight's aunt's house for Thanksgiving. One evening she made Cream of Broccoli soup and it was so yummy! I asked her how she makes it and she said, "Oh...I don't follow a recipe...a little of this, a little of that." Which of course didn't really help me make my own Cream of Broccoli soup. Her daughter told me that she puts lemon and sour cream in so I googled for a recipe that had lemon and sour cream.

I never did find that but I did find a recipe which I've now made several times and I think it's pretty darn good. The kids even like it so that says A LOT. In fact, even Dwight will eat it which really says a lot.  Honestly though, that shouldn't be a surprise since the reicpe has a 4.5 star average after 499 reviews on AllRecipes.com.

It's good just the way it is but I've also modified it a little just because of what we had in the fridge and it seems to be a pretty forgiving recipes. I tried to do it ala Aunt Esther with lemon and sour cream and that was good. I've used heavy cream instead of milk - yummy. I've used half evaporated milk and half regular milk - yummy. Today we had it for lunch and I threw some shredded cheese on top - yummy.

If you like cream of broccoli soup, definitely give this a try:

Ingredients

* 2 tablespoons butter
* 1 onion, chopped
* 1 stalk celery, chopped
* 3 cups chicken broth
* 8 cups broccoli florets
* 3 tablespoons butter
* 3 tablespoons all-purpose flour
* 2 cups milk
* ground black pepper to taste

Directions

1. Melt 2 tablespoons butter in medium sized stock pot, and saute onion and celery until tender. Add broccoli and broth, cover and simmer for 10 minutes.
2. Pour the soup into a blender, filling the pitcher no more than halfway full. Hold down the lid of the blender with a folded kitchen towel, and carefully start the blender, using a few quick pulses to get the soup moving before leaving it on to puree. Puree in batches until smooth and pour into a clean pot. Alternately, you can use a stick blender and puree the soup right in the cooking pot.
3. In small saucepan, over medium-heat melt 3 tablespoons butter, stir in flour and add milk. Stir until thick and bubbly, and add to soup. Season with pepper and serve.

Source:
http://allrecipes.com//Recipe/best-cream-of-broccoli-soup/Detail.aspx

Saturday, January 22

Sweet Treats

I submitted this for my Focus52 project for the week. The prompt for this week was "cold". This might not seem like it has anything to do with cold but making these treats was how we entertained ourselves on a snow day so there you go...that fits, right?!  *hehe*  But actually I have to admit that my intentions ARE suspect. I did another layout today (see below) which fit better with my project objectives, but this is the one I submitted because....well...I liked the pictures.  Yep, vanity at its best.

To be honest, we're at week 3 and I'm hitting a wall.  Is that a good sign or a bad sign?  Here's the deal: I'm pretty sure I'm a better photographer than scrapbooker...and it's frustrating. I feel like my layouts are kind of dull and they're all the same. But if I try to get too "artsy" with them, it just doesn't feel authentic.  I dunno.  I tell myself that if nothing else, the story is getting told, and that's what matters, right?


Sweet Treats, originally uploaded by hezro.

Monday, January 17

Begin


Begin, originally uploaded by hezro.
I started working on this post on Thursday, per my previous post.

And typical for my life, that launched me onto a completely different project.  I was looking for photos to use and the only high-res photo I could find was this little gem from our first Halloween together.


So that launched me into a photo scanning project.  Now, three days and two boxes of photos later, I've scanned all of my prints until the middle of 2000.  The exciting thing is that by the end of 2000 I had a digital camera.  So only half a year of photos to go. Yipee!  (I do have two albums of prints from my wedding but still, the end is in sight.) 

It actually wasn't too bad.  I used the continuous scan function on VueScan and I watched about 30 episodes of Arrested Development courtesy of Netflix.com (before I finally switched to Monarch of the Glen, which I'm watching right now, as a matter of fact).  Honestly I would have kept going with the scanning but I was getting serious carpal tunnel in my wrist from switching out the photos...I'm not kidding.  But on the up side, I got to finish my first layout for my Focus52 project.  And I'm looking forward to fifty-one more layouts of the important...and unimportant things in my life.

Thursday, January 13

Focus 52

A few days (weeks?) ago I signed up to be part of Focus 52.  Jan over at twoscoopz put me up to it and I'm glad she did.  But let me confess that I haven't actually started yet.  I knew it was something I wanted to do but I wasn't exactly sure WHAT I wanted to do.  The obvious thing would be for me to take photos.  But you know...I've taken photos most days since July 2003 so that's not really stretching my creativity.  I'm not saying I get fantastic photos every day but you know, I just wasn't feeling it on the photography front...or at least not JUST photography.  Because to be perfectly honest, I'm trying to learn to NOT take my camera with me everywhere I go.  So doing a POTW didn't feel particularly ambitious or helpful.

In that case, what to do?  At the rate I've been going, I probably could have settled for one blog post a week and that would have been an accomplishment.  *hehe*  Yes, I've been a bit of a slacker lately.  But I'm actually going to be even more ambitious than that.  Here's the plan:  I want to do one digiscrap layout a week AND I want them to be about the everyday things in our lives (my life?).  How awesome would it be - twenty years from now - to read up on what our current daily schedule is...or how I *really* feel about cooking...or even things from our family history like how Dwight and I came to be...or how I came to be driving a minivan.  Maybe those will be tales my kids can connect with when they're embarking on this adventure called Parenting.  So that's the plan.  At the end of the day...err...year, I think I'll walk away with something incredibly valuable to me.  And in the meantime, I think the weekly creative outlet will be good for me.  Perhaps I can even work in Jan's weekly prompts? 

So now that I've figured out what I'm doing, I have plans to get started TONIGHT...and I'd better hurry up and get two layouts done because week 3 is right around the corner!

Tuesday, January 11

Pomegranate Chicken

Okay, I'm going crazy posting recipes.  I tried making a vegetarian version of Mrs NilsenLife's Pomegranate Chicken.  I thought it was pretty yummy though I have to be honest and tell you that part of what makes it memorable for me was the vibrant colors.  Yummy!

Cabbage and Veggie Soup


Someone also asked for my soup recipe. Mom? Was it you Mom?

I'm addicted to this soup. My brother makes an awesome cabbage soup and mine pales in comparison, but I'm addicted nonetheless. I googled for a cabbage and beef soup recipe so I used that as my base but now I've ventured away from that one a bit. Here's my version of Danny's soup:

1 pkg frozen morningstar recipe crumblers (or whatever they're called). I've used the Boca ones too but I prefer the Morningstar ones.

8-12 cloves of garlic sliced thin...well some of it chopped up but some of it sliced.

1 onion (I always use sweet onions because they don't make me tear up like yellow onions do)

2 stalks celery, chopped (if a stalk is an entire "bunch" then I don't use a stalk. But if a stalk is just one stick then I use more. Probably about 4 sticks.)

1 (16 oz) can kidney beans, undrained

1 head cabbage, chopped (not too small) and don't remove the stem. Only cut off the dry, dark part on the bottom because otherwise, it's the best part of the soup.

1 (28 oz) can diced tomatoes, liquid reserved

1 can tomato paste (I usually use the small but I've used the big too and it was still good - just a little more tomato-y)

Several cans of water or broth. I sometimes use vegetarian broth (I like the Wolfgang Puck one) but almost always add water too. Basically just get it to the consistency you want. And then add some GW Broth or McKay's or whatever seasoning you like. Even when I use broth, I still add some seasoning. My brother doesn't do the seasoning and adds a de-veined jalapeno but I'm too lazy for all that. My brother adds green pepper. I'm not a huge green pepper fan but I don't mind it in this. He also adds a little olive oil and vegetable oil. Sometimes I saute the onions and garlic and those times I'm more likely to add the oils. Other times I don't add any at all. The recipe I have calls for garlic salt, garlic powder and black pepper. Sometimes I add some/all of those...sometimes I don't. I guess you can add parsley. Never tried that. My brother adds five bay leaves so sometimes I throw in a few of those.

This is a very forgiving soup, as you're probably realizing. *hehe*

1. In a large pot (very large!! I was using my 8 QT pot and was unable to put as much water as I wanted because it wasn't quite big enough) or dutch oven, brown beef and onion (not necessary for vege burger).
2. Add all ingredients except parsley.
3. Bring to a boil.
4. Reduce heat and simmer, covered, for 1 hour. (Danny only does 45 minutes and I'm always impatient to get eating so I only do 45 minutes too).
5. You may add extra water if you like a thinner soup. (Well this recipe only says one can of water so you're already doing that, if you're following my instructions.)
6. Garnish with parsley to serve.

Great Apple Cake


 This is probably my favorite cake. And people who try it always seem to like it. I was recently asked to share the recipe so here it is. Thank you to my friend Christina for sharing this cake - and recipe - with me a decade ago.  The last time I made it I actually managed to get it out of the pan but I didn't think to take pictures.  Oh well.


Cream:
1 cup oil
2 cups sugar

Beat:
3 eggs
1 tbsp vanilla

Mix:
3 cups flour
1 tsp salt
1 tsp baking soda

Fold in:
1 cup walnuts
3 cups chopped (& peeled) apples

Optional:
1/2 tsp each of cloves, cinnamon & nutmeg

Bake in an angel food cake pan at 350 degrees for 1 hour. After cooled 10 minutes pour sauce on top.

Sauce:
1 cup brown sugar
1/4 cup milk
3/4 STICK of butter

Bring to a boil, then cook for 3 minutes. Pour over cake (still in pan) and let stand overnight for 24 hours.